Thursday, 28 December 2017

MY BIRTHDAY

(The cake was beautifully made by Vic who runs Vics Vegan Bakes)

Hey guys, its been a pretty long time since I did a blog post. What a year it has been. Wow, I didn't expect to be on such a rollercoaster, to then come off it ten times stronger than I ever were before. I don't know where to start, because since September, my birthday. I have changed the path of my future. Thankfully, it was the best decision of my life, I just didn't know it until three months later. I was terrified, so scared to be alone, no plan of what I wanted to do, where I wanted to go. I was even getting confirmation from the Universe, that I was on the right path. Whoever believes in seeing synchronised numbers or digits, like 1111 or 222, 11, yeah I was seeing these very often and it made me laugh, but I also felt comforted. I just trusted the power of the Universe, tried not to control, and allowed what will be to happen naturally. It was the best decision of my life.

I've been in relationships from such a young age and tried to make them work with all my energy. I tried to make men love me, when I didn't even love myself. I tried so hard to create a perfect relationship. Unfortunately, it all backfired and I become trapped in a relationship that wasn't good for me or the other participant involved. When two people aren't meant to be together, but force it so much, it can and was catastrophic. It took a huge knock to realise that I had to move the hell on with my life and not be so afraid to start it. By myself.

So here are some photos taken on my Birthday in September, a couple of days before my world got turned upside down. I'd like to share them with you, because even thought they hold negative memories of the days before my relationship ended. I was an anxious mess. But I still tried to sugar coat my birthday and have a good time. When I put together this little editorial style shoot, I then realised, heck, I can do this. I need to do this. I need to show the world my creativity, my talent, my new found confidence. The person I was before a guy told me I wasn't good enough.  So I did it. I grabbed the world, and decided this time I am going to be strong, I am going to live my dream.

Lots of love,

Charlotte x
     

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